Friday, February 17, 2012
Do soulmates exist?
You know how sometimes you just wanna run away from the world? You just wanna take your heart out, stomp on it and put it back in? Has it ever happened to you? I guess my biggest problem in the world is this fairytale like life that I live in. Not that it has been a problem so far, but ya, with the big 21 rolling in, maybe just maybe I should indeed step back into reality. But reality is such a bore! So, what do I do huh?
I was talking to a friend yesterday and she told me that in order for you to find your prince charming, you have to list down all the characteristics you want him to have, and then wish so hard and believe that you will meet such a guy and voila, he'll come! Of course, I did give her the whole, "that's stupid, you need to meet a guy the traditional way" and all. But, I couldn't help it. I am curious. Is it possible? Like, in just wishing, he'll walk into my life? Seriously?
Let me tell you a secret. I am Miss Love. It is true that I have never been in a relationship before and it is also true that I am the go to girl when it comes to love. But this is who I really am. I am a girl who is struggling to keep my faith in love. I have seen enough to know it is not all fairytale like.
I am afraid. Very afraid. Very very afraid of falling in love. I'm afraid of the fact that I may get my heart broken. And, that's very very hurtful isn't it? I am afraid of wanting to spend the rest of my life with someone. What if I make a mistake? What if it is all temporary and he'll just walk out on me one day. What if I trust him so much and he ends up scaring me after a few years. What if all that he promised, those sweet words just get swallowed up by time? What if he changes? What if love runs out?
I practically preach every single day that you have to believe in love. You have to learn to love after being hurt. You have to let yourself fall for the one your heart desires. You cannot give up on love. Ask my friends and see. I am Miss Love. But, I am also a simple girl, who has been through a lot in life, who cries at the most silliest things, who gets very defensive when someone she cares for is hurt, who dances to her own tune, who is extremely scared of practically everything, but puts on a brave front. I am just another girl trying hard to guard her heart for the one that deserves it.
So yes, I am just like you. I am afraid of falling in love. But I am believing that GOD has made someone for all of us. He is out there and she is out there. So, it doesn't matter that you are finding it hard to believe in love. Believe in GOD instead. Trust his judgments. And my dears, do not be afraid of wanting to fall in love. It is a sign that you are alive. That your heart is still beating. And yes, they are all not the same. Just because someone broke your heart, doesn't mean all of them would. If it is not meant to be, it will never be. But if it is indeed meant to be, then no matter what happens, hurricanes, distance, other girls, other guys, your parents, your relatives, her ego, his ego, misunderstandings, fights, etc, etc...no matter what happens, two hearts that are meant to be, can never be separated.
As what Arielle Ford once said, "When deep down in the core of your being you believe that your soulmate exists, there is no limit to the ways he or she can enter your life"
Ps: So I should go and write that list kan? *thinking hard*