Here's to this mystery we call "Life". :)

I have so much to tell and equally much to share. In the last 6 days of my life I have learnt so much. I used to take life for granted. I used to look up at my principles, not willing to comply, always thinking I had the rights to do whatever I wanted in my life. I used to take life one day at once. And then, everything changed. I wish I can say more than that but right now I can't.
It is so funny how random little things really teach us lessons that we would carry in ourselves, somewhere deep down our hearts. And I am honestly very thankful for these lessons that I am learning on a daily basis. Who would have thought that a girl like me would get stuck in a world like that with people so different from me. Adapting is more than just a word or an act here. It has a life of its own.
So, where am I going with this post? Well, I just wanna say this. Never be afraid to take chances in life. Don't ever give up easily and never let anyone or anything get to you. Even if you feel like giving up, always remember the very reason why you held on this far. Life is very short yes, but there is so much to see and so many different worlds to set your foot in, metaphorically that is. Even if you have this constant fear in you, put on a brave front. No one will be able to see the difference. Trust me on that.
Good luck with December everyone! Love you all to the tiniest bits. :)

Best friends in LOVE?

I don't think best friends should fall in love. There, I said it. I always used to admire people who had someone of the opposite sex as their best friend. You know, no feelings, just pure love in a way that is not attraction kinda thingy. And I always used to shake my head when I eventually find out that those best friends turn into lovers. It is not that you should not fall for your best friend, it is just that...why? I mean, this is a person that knows you so well, what makes you tick, what is your flaw, who you really are. So, is that why then? Because its easier?
Trust me, I am not judging. I am merely trying to understand something I don't see myself doing. I think love is something that is risky and getting into a relationship with your best friend means putting that pure friendship at risk. What if things don't work out? Is it possible to go back to being just friends?
Well, when you fall for someone, there is no reasons, no explanations, no fear...just love. Purely blinded love. So ya, I don't see myself falling for someone that I really trust and treat as a close friend because I need sparks. I believe in the magical aspect of love. I believe that love has 8 stages. But then again, I am just the kinda girl that thinks a prince is out there waiting to sweep me off my feet.
So, best friends in love? Neh, not my kinda thingy.

*Sulks and Pouts*

Yes, I am pouting. I don't like to pout but I am. I think pouting makes me look really witchy and mean, but yet I am doing it. You see, there is this thing about me. I don't like to chase after people who don't chase after me. Call it ego, but I say its, self worth. If someone does not remember you, or pretend not to, will you be the one that bugs them, and reminds them of your existence?
Well, I learnt the very hard way that if someone wants to keep in touch with you, or wants to talk to you, or even, still wants you in their life, they will make an effort to stay, to be with you, to support you in the way you want them to or in the way they can.
See, it is a fair concept here. Why would you want to spend your time, energy and thoughts on a person who does not even do anything to appreciate that? Because you care? Oh please don't give me that answer. Even I know that when you care, you will get hurt.
Hence, I care. It bothers me. It makes me upset that those I care for does not care for me in return. So...what do i do? Remind them that I exist? Slowly sway myself back into their lives? Neh. I shall just sulk and pout for now. At least that takes my mind of things. And when I am done with the sour face and all, I shall decide what to do.
After all, human beings are busy creatures right? That sums up why I like animals better and why I believe in a magical land such as fairytopia.

Goodbye MR. 2012's Deepavali

And just like that, the day has ended. I just finished replying to all the messages that came in, wishing me a good Deepavali. I still hear to the sounds of crackers being burst as I type this out. It was different this year, very different. But, I am pleased to say that I kept my emotions in check today. No tears flowed, no temper flared and well, like I said, it is different. 

I spent the day here, in front of the tv, with my eyes on my laptop that is resting so calmly on the coffee table. I have finished about a 100 plus pages of that beautifully twisted love novel that my friend introduced me to. I can't seem to read with much ease due to the fact that it is in the form of a word document and not a real, solid book. Nevertheless, I dare say that my view on a particular topic is definitely being altered as I find myself tangled in a world of romance. 

It was a good day though. I learnt how to make briyani today. The last time I tried, well, it did not go so well and as such, I am pleased to announce that I think I finally nailed the recipe. I definitely had fun in the kitchen today with mum.
Apart from that, I went online, updated my Facebook status, scribbled in Twitter and well, that's about it. My online social life is deteriorating but the thing is, I am not bothered. Pretty new for Raevarthy, that's for sure.

I slept, I woke up, I prayed, I watched one of my favourite movies, I fed the kids, I ate dinner, I cleaned up the dishes and I am waiting for the day to end. In the blink of an eye, I am bidding goodbye to Mr. 2012's Deepavali with ease. It was different, but an easy day. And I definitely thank God for that. :)

Celebrating Deepavali in a white cage.

Imagine this cage. A little white cage with a door that is locked and in it, you. Look at life from that point of view. How would it make you feel? That's the one answer I always had for those that told me that life was tough. I always argued that we made life look tough, it really isn't. Apparently even Mr Life himself got a little bit upset with me for that statement coz well, life for me now is...erm...let's just say, not a bed of roses.

It is the 6th of November today so yes, memories are flooding in. I won't say more than that because it is not my place to.

Apart from that, well, I have nothing much to look forward to. I know that it is the season of Deepavali and everyone has caught the holiday bug. I woke up today to see my housemates packing. Boxes were everywhere, books were being thrown in along with the entire memories of the sem. Had a little moment there trying to make sense of what I had done for the last 6 months or so. I remember early January this year and now it is already November. Time flies? How about time is actually in a speed jet, not stopping for anything in it's way? 

Anyway, so ya, nothing to look forward to. Deepavali will come and go, we will all go online, posting statuses about Deepavali, we will take out our phones and text our loved ones, creating the best possible Deepavali wish, we will eat like we have never seen food before, we will hear crackers being burst late at night, and then just as it came, the spirit of Deepavali will die down too and we will resume to our regular lives.
I am not celebrating Deepavali this year so it is not much of a celebration to me. It never really was so it does not make much of a difference. I was never the kinda girl who loved to to climb a gazzilion shops, bargaining for the best outfits or the one to sit in the kitchen and bake those cookies that somehow will go to waste at the end. I was just the girl who took out clothes I bought but never wore and called that my Deepavali outfit. I baked but just for the fun of it, just coz I love baking. We don't have much relatives that will be flocking the house too, so I never really bothered.
But last year was different. I had fun going out to shop with my friends, buying back things for mum and dad and I actually cooked some lovely dishes on the day of Deepavali. The three of us, minus my sister who was at Indonesia at that time, sat by ourselves and ate. It was quiet but lovely. 

This year, well, like I said, life is currently not a bed of roses and hence, I will not be doing any of that. I will light up my home though. Always loved putting up lamps all over the house. And maybe just maybe this year I will look up at the skies and see a shooting star. Maybe I will wish upon that shooting star and then poof, just like that, I won't find myself sitting in a white cage any longer. Irony? You have no idea!
Anyway, to those celebrating, Happy Deepavali and to the rest, Happy Holidays! Stay as fabulous as ever! :)