Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I feel as though I am giving up on myself and if you know me, you know that I love myself so much which makes me almost like a steel. No harsh words can crush me, an no cruel remarks can hurt me, or so i thought. But lately, I feel as though nothing I do is ever good enough. Sometimes, I wonder when I'd be free from trying to please everyone. I'm so tired of being the "good' girl. Sometimes, i want to scream at the top of my lungs, I want to do things I want and I just want to act plain stupid. But, my inhibitions are killing me. And frankly, I'm lost. Like a child that got lost in the supermarket. Thats how I feel.
I have no where to turn to, no one to talk too and it's killing me because this is so not me. Help me, GOD!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
So, anyway, being a mum is tough but it's worth every moment and every second of the day. I'm happy and very grateful that i have the both of them. I know they don't judge me and I know they love me with all they have. N i would gladly give my life away for them. I will never hesitate. Now and forever.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Sometimes we treat people according to our mood. Have you brushed your anger off to an innocent soul just because you were too tensed? Have you cried in front of a stranger because you could not keep it in any longer? Have you smiled and acted hyper around your friends for no reason rather than the fact that someone made your day? I’ve done all those. Looking back at it now I know that humans find it so hard to keep any feelings be it joy, sadness, nor anger in them. Somehow we have to release it right? But let me tell you something, no one deserves the anger you throw at them nor the lack of attention you show. I’m a person too. I hope you can see that beyond the way I look coz I know I don’t look like J.Lo. But, I look like a human, don’t I? I have feelings too. I may be timid and quiet but that’s the way I am. I scream for nonsense stuffs, I get hyper and speak loudly at times, I cry for no reasons, I smile at strangers-only the ones that look friendly, I take rash decisions which I eventually will regret, I am scared of practically everything in the world, I depend too much on people, and I breathe everyday as any other human! So, behind this glasses (or lenses) is a girl with a very good heart. Don’t judge me for the way I look!
Ps: I felt very hurt today but you will never know because you don’t feel what I feel.