Wednesday, July 21, 2010

-Confessions and tears-

You would never believe it if I told you that I stayed in love for 10 years with the same guy but he never knew I existed, well literally. He was a friend of my sister and I easily had a crush on him. A massive one indeed. I was 8 years old when I began to like him and the love grew from time to time. I used to think that he was the one I would spend my life with. Sounds stupid right? It did not back then.

I do not know why but I always thought of him as mine. Yes, I loved him. I am not ashamed of that. He never knew I liked him. But, I was crazy of him. There came a time in my life last year where I finally came to terms that he is not the only guy out there. Hell, he doesn’t even speak to me! But, by that time, I had already kept him so close in my heart that I could not let my feelings go. I know it sounds ridiculous but it was genuinely hard for me. Hence, this week I wrote a confession letter that I bawled over(I know im such a cry baby!), that made me feel better. I now feel as though I can conquer the world. Thank you for keeping my heart safe for so long, but it is time that I had it back. Goodbye forever Mr.L.

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