When the old couple argued and I looked into my own soul. :)

It was a beautiful Saturday morning. Mum was busy writing out her grocery list, dad was watching some old movie on TV, and I was chatting with a friend on Facebook when the unpredictable happened! Alright, too big of a word. Well, something that I did not expect to happen happened.

I heard a loud scream followed by some shouting. We all looked up and at one another. Yes, a full blown argument was taking place. This is nothing unusual right? I mean, we all have neighbours that fight. The thing is, this was so surprising to me because it was my 78 year old neighbour uncle and 60 plus year old neighbour aunty cursing at one another. They were not necessarily the sweetest couple around but hey, after 40 plus years of living together, I would think that they wouldn't shout at one another to leave the house. But they did. The cursing, and swearing, and screaming was just too deafening to hear. Trust me on that. It went on for about half an hour and then just like that the noise died down. Life I suppose, moved on for them.

But then again, knowing me, you would know that I took it personal. It did make me think and voila I am here. I am not going to go on a debate here telling you that after years of marriage love does run out between a couple. That is not my stance. My stance here is simple. I do not want that. Yes, I am taking this on a personal level. I do not want a marriage in which after 50 odd years together he starts shouting at me and I curse him back. You know, I can argue too, which I am sure I will do if he starts questioning me or my beliefs.

So, where am I going with this? Well, people, I just feel like saying this. Relationships turn sour not because love runs out but because care does. When you care about someone, you would understand them. And even if you did not, you would pretend that you did. How come the little flutter of hearts, butterfly in tummy, smiling for no reason and bla bla just somehow goes away once we are tied to that particular someone that we fell for in the very first place? Why? 

If only we all remember the very first day that we fell in love, we would not have any problems in any of our love lives. And that my dears, is something you should think of. In order to have a problem free love life, you need to see him or her the same way you did when you first realized you were in love with him/her. After all, if the problem is LOVE then the solution is LOVE too kan?

It is after all an insensitive world!

I am currently in a very depressed, annoyed, about to blast at someone, can't calm down kinda state. The reason being something that I wish not to state here. Nevertheless even in this state of mind, I feel the necessity to state a few facts. And yes, this is written based on my unstable emotion and no I do not care of the repercussions of it.
I am done being a used mat. I am done being someone everyone can step on. Never once in a million years I thought I would be here today. Never once I thought this would bother me this much. But when you truly care, love and adore someone, it will hurt, and that is a lesson I learnt the hard way. Why did I share so many memories with you that now only seem as though I have been nothing but someone you had when you had no one? Alright fine. I know I am emo-ing. Well, a girl gotta emo at times to be the tough person she portrays whom she is not.
I also do not understand why people are so bias. And I honestly mean it. We all live in a country in which we have been taught to understand, tolerate, accept and appreciate one another's differences in religion, values, as well as way of life. The only thing is that after 21 years of life, here I am watching things that should not happen, happen in my life. If at 2012 we live among racism and colour coding, imagine when 2020 rolls in. Leave the nation aside for a minute. Look at our very own university, school, institution, place of work. Where do I even go with this? Patience is virtue they say. But what if being patient is only easier said than done? 

And then there is me. Trying to make sense of an insensitive world. That's just so me kan?

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P- The unsinkable ship? Really?

Tada! I am here. Been a while hasn't it? I have definitely missed writing. I got caught up in keeping myself sane in a world that is a total madness that I even forgot I had a blog! Unbelievable kan? Anyway, in these few weeks of my absence, I have had some interesting encounters and events that I only wish I can pen them all down. But, like always, there is this one particular topic that made me think too much that I just had to write it down.
FRIENDSHIP.
That one ship that is deemed unsinkable. Not to me that is. No matter how many people I meet in my life or how many friends I make, I somehow believe that those friends that we laugh with, cry to, say "I love you" to, insult, and poke fun with will somehow be a stranger to us someday. Negative much? Trust me. I am being very judgmental, yes, but also very practical.
Life is unpredictable. So what do we do again? We hold those that we love close to us without ever forgetting that every one of them will leave us one day. We came into this world without any friends and we will leave as such. It is that thought that we should have in us. Why you ask? Simple.
In any friendship, there will come a time in which your relationship with that person will be tested. It will be worst than anything that you have ever been through. This is due to the fact that this person has no ties with you. They are just some stranger that you have learnt to trust and love. So what happens when that trust and love is proven to be lies? Or is it?
The thing about being friends with someone is that you can never tell when you should be angry and when you should give in. There are so many of us that have so many issues with our friends but we never voice them out because we still value friendship more than ego. But then again, how do you state your pick?
Funny how this particular relationship called "friends" work. Funny how someone you once know becomes someone you knew. Is there an end to friendship? God bless whoever who can answer that.