Love, perhaps?

I dreamnt of you today and yes, I miss you. Maybe you were just meant to be a part of my dreams. Why are you so far away from me? When you were there, I took you for granted and now I regret it. Maybe that last day with you could have been different. Maybe a simple "goodbye" could have made a difference. I guess I would never know. Is there any hope that I would meet you again? I long for that day despite knowing full-heartedly that it would not affect you in any manner if I do so. But, it would be one of the happiest days of my life. I am fairly sure of that. You know, there is just so much a person can write here. The rest remains buried deep within my soul. Only time will tell. I can't flush away your memories and so, shall I keep them? It hurts and yet it feels good. What do you call this feelings? Love, perhaps?

-Not in a good shape-

I can only wish for things to get better. There are lots of people out there with the capability to shower me with all the love that I need. Then why on earth am I pinning for something that doesn't exist? I am confident, opinionated, and I certainly do not need you in my life. I have had enough since I walked in here. Life here is nothing but a whole mess. And yet, it is a beautiful mess. All I need to do is find a way to strike a balance. I am trying, I dare say that.

-Wordless-

Everyone makes mistakes in life. Some large, some small. It's what you do afterwards that counts.

(Raevarthy, 2010)