Confused.

I'm currently here in the icy cold library with the presence of Bagya trying to complete our BM assignment. I like the quietness with a hint of chatter. It makes me feel safe. And that's rarely how I feel nowadays. I'm falling for someone I shouldn't. I feel so confused and I don't know where to go for answers. I don't trust anyone easily and I know I'm keeping my guard up. Why isn't my heart listening to what my mind is saying?