Update 1-post first paper

So im just done with my first paper of sem 1 and honestly it was a killer paper, not in a good way. My spirit has been down for the last few hours due to certain unexplainable reasons. It's as though i'm meant to be there and yet im not. I hope GOD isn't angry with me. It's not really my fault right? Anyway, the last thing i need now is for someone to tell me it's going to be okay coz it's not. There are going to be killer papers next week too and how on earth am i supposed to survive if im not given any form of stuffs that my heart wants? Confused? I am too! Blame it on the stupid philosophy paper people! Either way, seeing people happy makes me happy and im super happy for the rest of my batch who are out there celebrating the fact that we are done with the first paper. As for me, I guess im a loner today. Going to lean against my huge pink teddy with a mug of coffee pretending everything is alright. Only this four walls understand how i feel i suppose. But hey, you don't always get what you want right? So, im happy, in a twisted, weird sorta way.