A leader of the pack

I know that all of us(my Macbeth crew) is upset over what had happened..I got lost when that person asked me to comment on my fellow actors coz i thought they did a very good job..well, at least you shud have paid attention to them before criticising...anyway, i know that what had happened is going to pull our spirits down and im not going to let anyone hurt my crew...whatever it is, i know that if i stay strong the rest will soon find that strength in them to do the same as well...im not saying im a good director(hell, im not even sure if i am one!) but I know that i want this to work out well and im going to do everything i can to make it work...we'll laugh, we'll cry(though i m trying my best not to do so)..but at the end of the day, we are one...and thats all that matters!

Upset

I know that i should never allow people to hurt me..but I can only watch as it happens again. I know im in power and sometimes that power hurts i guess. Nevertheless, I'm promising myself to be patient..as much as i can. It hurts badly and I have no idea where to vent out what i feel. Do not cry, I instruct my eyes but its failing me.....

Sometimes when something new arises, everything old makes it worse. Im honestly strong and I know that. Its just that i feel lost.............

What a day!

Alright i know that it is only 1.47 p.m and I have already started complaining..yes, it has been a rough morning(too much of Macbeth i guess :))..anyway, i am currently at my beloved queen's room a.k.a bul bul..she is fast asleep while im busy typing away...well not so busy...i decided to not return to my room(block 5) coz i know i'll be too lazy to turn up for the ELS meeting later on at 2.30 p.m..hence, i dropped by at block 3..

Anyway, let me tell you what happened today morning...just as i was getting ready, all hyped and psyched for class...a tragedy struck..my spectacles broke! one of the lenses fell out! so, i have been walking around IPBA today without glasses n yes it has been a blurry sight...reminds me of Posh's dialogue for our choral speaking..."I cant see clearly..everything is blurring!"...that's how it is for me! Nevertheless, my new mantra is..EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! Hence, i am sure that there is a goodness behind this disaster...lets just wait and see what happens..

Macbeth is all i think about..I seriously, honestly one to make this work..i am the director of the play and I am happy to lead..takes my mind of certain things that has happened recently..anyway, i have a bunch of wonderful people working with me...so, no worries! I really want ACT 2 to turn out so well that we will receive the highest from of praises from everyone(i know it sounds like a dream..but hey..dreams do come true at times!)

Well, whatever it is..no matter how bad of a situation i get entangled in, i know that there is always someone else out there in a much worse situation than the one that i am in....hence, life sucks..it is cruel..but i am going to show how smart i am to the life that treated me foolishly!